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Sunday, December 30, 2007
Yesterday
morning went to tennis
couldnt cntinue on private sessions with coach so
went to training on sats
its a bit early
but exams are approaching fast
no time during thurs mornings liao
dad fetched me
reached ard 9
went and started at 9.30(coz thats the time fr te 2nd session)
coach hinted that its not anymore coz of the people that excused themselves many times
the session now starts at 8 and ends at 11
9.30 a gal came
new and nice racket(black n six two)
wore a blue cap, shorts
tall and pretty too
she didnt speak like an ah lian
she played quite well for a beginner
figured she played b4 but just joined for leisure
coach fed me few shots fr a while
time flew
asked coach bout the new gal
her names apple if im not wrong
and shes local
rushed back home
high tea with my aunt and family
advised aunt and MUM to do more good deeds so as to create good karma
at ALLSON hotel at bras basah rd
dropped bro at bedok fr his tennis
weather was cloudy
mum and aunt went 4d
i checked out the place
walked around shopping
looks like toa payoh
but very messy
it started to rain
there were sales there
Dad picked bro up
rain so his tennis cancelled
went vivo
BOUGHT CLOTHES
shopped till night
dinner then went home
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today
woke up in the morning
ate breakfast
watched TV
so boring
den tragedy struck
My MUM shouted at my dad and he ignored her
My MUM shouted at him louder
he stomped to the kitchen and threw the basket(used to put plates etc but its empty) on the floor
i gt pissed at my dad as he always do things at home wrong and dun wanna change
and created trouble
he always tell us not to throw tantrums
coz we are educated not gangsters
i shouted at my dad to do things right and be responsible for what u do
always run away from them
my fucking bro pushed me from behind and punched my back
we shoved each other
my dad turned and whacked me
MUM seperated us
MUM was crying
and she mumbled that she was heart broken enough already so we had to stop our nonsense
she blamed me
my bro blamed me
my dad acted its all my fault and told MUM to ignore me
i shouted at him to back off and not say things like that
as he started all this
we all argued
brother started to shove me for a challenge
i punched him right in his face
OUCH
tore his shirt open
dad interfered and whacked me again
i retaliated
shouted with bro for a long while
my dad and bro sided each other
'my bro always told me that we both wanted peace'
it took me a long time to cooled down
MUM lectured and blamed me
again
she sided with my bro coz of my UGLY BLACK past(i used to quarreled with my parents and they always blamed me and they whacked me hard till i bled so i fought back...........My MUM would tell every1 she knew that i beat them up....... its not true and My MUM would nag for years over me and she curses me in front of my family)
i kept quiet finally and broke down in a corner
i love My MUM
i hate hokkien punks like my dad and bro
i usually say i m hakka
thats the reason
i am talkative and very straightforward
its time i change myself
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My MUM used to nag at my dad for not doing things right
she always remind him but he chose not to listen
when My MUM shouts at him and scolds he will always take things and throw on the floor like rice cooker baskets anything she scolds him
i dont blame My MUM as she cares and she did remind my dad but he always turn a deaf ear
i dun really like my dad
as he always keeps quiet and backstabs My MUM
when My MUM gets pissed she would ignore
he keeps pestering her
My dad and younger bro are close
I am close with My MUM
on many occasions my dad always do things the wrong way and dosent want to change
when My MUM nags he threatens to commit suicide and throws everything on the floor
during the middle of the night
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sometimes i overheard them as i am a light sleeper unlike my bro
My MUM wanted a divorce
My MUM would changed topics and cursed me(always me)
i could do nothing but only cry
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quarrel like this have happened since i m young
arguments all my life
i have always give in to My MUM
but she talks bad bout me to others
i m close to my aunt and i asked her if my dad does something wrong what shld i do
she says i shld tell him outright and not let him repeat his mistakes
I HOPE WHOEVER READS THIS POST CAN COMMENT AT MY CBOX AND ADVISE ME
I am hopeless and goodfornothing but i hope someone would help me!
